And the horseman came riding in...with the grave news that it has not been the way it had to be. So havent made anymore journals so ill make one right now. Tomorrow is tuesday and ill be staying with my friends. I feel really lonely even though i talk to many people. I dont know what it is but makes me sad. I really want the world to be a better place. There should be no arguing or deths. I have had a violin for a couple months im okay at it i will one day play this [link] its sad and worthwhile. I always have a busy day or week. Any idea for poems send me comments and ill try and make it into a poem or story anything will do really.

Its been long since i have made another Journal Entry so i decide to make one about what I'm doing...

Lets see i want to get a very good violin..badly because i want to play the violin once again i want to get a very good one of course. Hopefully this Friday i can go to the beach this Friday is a very special day if it all goes to plan. I started focusing on stories i got my inspiration from a very good game called Lost Odyssey about the never dying man who lives his life like a curse. Just a couple more days and school will start...yay (sarcastic)Ive seen alot of my friends and been with em which is good saw great movies all summer. What I really really want though is a violin hows its so deep and how you can make the sound so steady but as a cry coming from the wood. Yeah so Friday Beach, and hopefully ill find someplace to buy a violin from...

Yay..im back from camping..it was very fun i swam alot played alot and our team won this competition thing with some other group. I am sunburnt right now my hand looks like its bleeding and if i stare down to my toes they have red scartches after some very mean rocks...yeah. I caught some fish and put em back in the water. We won awards and a bunch of stuff...I went to the Susquahanna park and Elk river something. Found me a collection of seashells lots of marshmallows and all the fun stuff you would do at camp.. So these two days were amazing...now what to do now that I is back.. hmm poem...fireworks for friday and i have to go buy things..cool.

Hello my de"A"r reader who ever you are..you "B"etter not be a spy..So yes..im done my Im not so perfect poem and now i have many many many poems left to go. Hooray *gives himself a party hat*
I will "B"e going to camp thats exciting..so y"E"ah if you have an"Y" topic in mind of a poem or idea please send a note and i will do my best to make it a very...good and warmable poem hows that sound?..better sound good bc i put warmable..idk's if thats a wurd..but neither is that..ahh how being alone makes me talk to myself.. So yeah camp will be fun even if its for some days
Ill get to swim and relaX go fishing with some guys yeah..some sports all that fun stuff you could imagine
Yup so people let me know what to write...because honestly i need more stuff to do..it would really help a bunch.

Info
[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.(we all have our days)
[/] I have many scars.(only one from burning my self on my right hand)
[] I tan easily.( i haz never been to de beach ive never de tanned)
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.(yes blue or blood red
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.( I HAS FRIENDS!!)
[] I have a tattoo.(pshh i wish)
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[]I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses. (im half blind without them)
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercing.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.(ive ran away from my house to go do stuuff)
[] I've been kicked out of the house.(pshh its my house)
[x] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.(does lying about being the father of Nelly's child count at all)(ha online CHILDREN)
[x] I've lost a child.(ive lost many in my days...oh how jacob was nuclear toxicated..)

School/Work
[] I'm in school(ITz Summer Fool!!)
[] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.(20days)
[] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[] I failed more than 1 class last year
[] I've stolen something from my job. I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.(yeah only with david bc he say lolz and lawls)
[] Disney movies still make me cry.(dont watch em that much)
[] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[] I've had my pants rip in public.
Health
[] I was born with a disease/impairment(i wouldnt know)
[] I've gotten stitches/staples
[/] I've broken a bone( kinda sorta my left leg a couple years ago)
[] I've had my tonsils removed.)idk)
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.(IDK)
[] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.(p'j day fuul)
[] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.(thats too much of a cheap move)
[x] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.(In many ways)
[] I've been Skiing.
[] I've been in a play.)
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single. (MEH!)
[] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced.
[] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[X] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.(YEAH!..i should listen to myslef more..really shuld)
[x] I've snuck out of my house.( to go to wawa and get a milkshake
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[xxxxxxx] I am keeping a secret from the world.(always have always will)
[] I've cheated while playing a game.(Champions dont cheat they manuever on what to do))
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.(w00t)
[] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[] I regularly drink.
[] I've passed out from drinking.
[] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[] I've smoked weed
[] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[] I've eaten shrooms.
[] I've popped E.
[] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[] I've done hard drugs.
[X] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[xx] I shut others out when I'm depressed.(I Think)
[] I take anti-depressants.
[] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.(ive slept more)
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.(only to get me focused...)
[] I've woken up crying.(not a crybaby)

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.(CAN I D!3?)
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.(not a good experience but everyone dies sometime)
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.(shes not close to me)
[] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.(i have wondered what to do)
[] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've written a eulogy for myself. (i have a book about to years)

Materialism
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.(i own many)
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.(weird)
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.(totally)
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[] I own something I got on e-bay.(ebay is cheap)
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[] I can sing well
[] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs.(they dont kill me im good with them))
[] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.(meh)
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.(where i gather my ideas and alot of things)
[x] I am a morning person.()
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I'm a snob about grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I twirl my hair.
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name.ha xlxojcsoxlx
[] I love being neat.
[] I love Spam
[] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.(flamethrower wise)
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue(BLUE!!)
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun( i like...gunz)
[x] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes. (thats what makes the funny)
[] I eat fast food weekly.( ieat good alot of nutrition)
[] I believe in ghosts.(IAM)
[] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[] I bite my nails.
[xXXXXXXXXXXXX] I play video games.(if u would see me play or know me you would know..)
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.(Im gonna be ME!)

[IDK WHAT DO YOU THINK!!!] All of those are answered honestly.


I got tagged by ill tag yallz someday i actually want to do so..